compliments

now i am sitting at rendezvous watching the downpour with an old couple.  they are drinking coffee in small cups and smoking imported cigarettes.  i am not sure what language they are speaking.

it has been a long time since i have written on here, or anywhere, i suppose.  i am uncertain as to how i feel about the overall level of resolution in my life.  the rain is quieting, now.

i have a plan, though, a real one.  the other tendrils can curl unimportantly onward.  my attention is focused elsewhere.  the old woman shifted to english to ask the time.  it is a quarter to two.

let me tell you the things i am thinking when i am driving in the car.

flimsy file cabinets house

the dna samples I take

donated drops of blood

for every occasion the

ultimate memory I wanted

to see mutations in action

genetic impatience general

lack of

fitness for parenthood

neuroticism spanned perfect

method twinned from

meticulousness perhaps rather

a calved sect instead a

crumble of glacier punctuating

the warming arctic ocean

receding from itself in

every moment insane productivity

I’ll shut up now my

teeth are wearing down enamel

eaten out every last night

think sporadic organization

preferably divergent hierarchies

converse only in empty

libraries sleep only in

beds belonging to others

the imprints are comforting

everything has been done

and said and is being done

and said alongside crepe

paper cartilage panoramas

we’ll go back to the farm

together – memorandum

to self hello dear

weather you’re keeping me

company just fine

house fires kept it

dark at night I count

your possessions for

lack of sheep mitochondrial

movements

unidentified implies specifications

the rain came out my

muscles atrophied slowly

hold my by my shoulders

teeth glossing over the

webbing of scar tissue held

us close or so we thought
spiraling hum at seventy-five